I feel like I'm looking through a fisheye lens,
and my eye keeps twitching.
My heart feels like it's going 120 beat a min,
but also feels like it's completely stopped.
But my pulse is 84 (an average for me).
My head is rocking back and forth to the music,
and my eyes want to close,
but need to focus on something.
Anything.
I've never been so paranoid of nothing,
and i've never craved to be around a crowd of people so bad.
Even though a huge part of me wants to be alone.
I took less than my normal amount of adderall today,
so why is this happening.
Side effects this strong normally only happen during finals,
when I haven't slept for days and Adderall is the only thing keeping me going.
My teeth feel like I've pushed them out with my tongue,
and my mouth is so dry.
All i want to do is create,
but my subconscious is too afraid of what i might destroy.
A perfect piece of paper,
with a stupid little sketch.
My heart wants to draw
but my brain wants perfection.
All i want is to watch Requiem for a Dream and draw away,
but all i can do is sit on the floor in front of my bed
and rock back and forth to the theme.

The side effects of starting Adderall again after a weekend off,
I guess you'd have to be in my shoes to understand.